para wannabe here

HI everyone, new here.

I want to be paralysed, I used to want to just be paralysed from the waist or chest down but now I am thinking I would quite like to be a quad.
I even have an electric wheelchair and just sit in it not moving for hours. I would love it if I could be like that for real. Someone would have to feed me and change my nappy and be my carer.

I can't stop thinking about it all the time, even when we are out I visualise what it would be like to be paralysed and in a wheelchair unable to do anything for myself at all.

i am also a para wannabe and would like a L2 or L1 type disability

actually anything would be fine, I just want to be disabled somehow. I'm getting obsessed now and can't get it out of my head how much better everything would be if I was a paraplegic or quad.